Frustration

I feel stupid. I should not have lied about my Maths paper. I got them and I know I failed my Maths by a disappointing 47%. I can't even remember when I was given my Maths paper, but it felt like decades ago, which makes it more unbearable. (I'm not trying too sound melodramatic but I'm the eldest child in the family and my dearest mother expects more from me than my two other siblings. When I fail it hurts her more, especially in Maths-her favorite subject. That's why I lied to them in the first place. Because I hated to see my mum crying and my daddy pissed off because I cause my mum to cry *groaned*). Today is already 30th November 2008. Tomorrow is our holiday. Most students would definately be ecstatic but I'm not sure.

Why?-Because on Saturday (29th November 2008) I got a call from my class teacher, Ck Rozi to come to Maktab Sains on Monday to collect my report card and that she would also be calling my classmates too. But, tonight, I was online when I found out none of my classmates got a call from Ck Rozi. dot...dot...dot...dot... I went in a conversation with a classmate and one of my closest friend, Fifah. I asked her first if she got a call from Ck Rozi (and suprise suprise she said no) and then I told her about my lying to my parents and etc. and guess what... she told me to tell my parents the truth about my lying to them about my freakin' Maths paper. Soon, I saw that Fifah was right, one way or another my mum will still have to deal with the disappointment. Anyway, when I told my parents about what I found out tonight, my mum told me straight out to just to take my report card next year for fear that I was going to be alone in a big "institution" (I can take care of myself).

I don't know how to react. It took me off guard. I thought my mum would have desperately wanted me to get my report card, but I guess not. I not sure anymore if I should confess or not. Should I?